Who Is She

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She came out of nowhere,

She’s still in denial,

She’s changed,

Yet she doesn’t want to accept it

 

How did this happen,

How did she let it happen,

For every action,

She tries to think,

And do what the old her would have done

… after she’s already done something,

That she never expected to

 

Is this what pain does to people?

Is this change that she is resisting worth it,

Why is she scared of this demon coming out of her?

 

Maybe its because she used to be the good girl,

She will be judged if she acts differently,

Maybe its because everything she wants to do,

Just feels wrong,

She would never have thought of it,

 

A big part of her,

Is still trying to hold on the the old her,

The good her,

That got her,

Yet was strong enough to always move on

 

She always wonders,

Is this what pain does to people?

And a little voice tells her,

‘Fuck your worries’,

‘Pick up the pieces’,

‘Move on’,

‘Its your time to hurt’,

‘Your time to be bad’,

‘Your time to stop worrying about others’,

‘Your time to stop being sorry’

 

And a voice counters,

‘Nobody deserves to have pain inflicted on them,

By another person’

 

 

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