HIDDEN TRUTH

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Pale,

No tears,

No emotions

 

Stiff,

Standing still,

Occasional smiling,

Frequent hiding

 

She had built herself,

And broke down her walls

 

But all those who came running in,

Were simply the wrong kind of people

 

They told her she was worthless,

They avoided her like a diseases,

And they only needed her,

When they needed someone to look down upon and to despise,

They taught her to hate herself,

And she accepted it

 

She tried to be strong,

But deep down she knows,

The strength she tries to show,

Is a mask for depression,

That she thinks will be her ruin

 

She wants to fight,

Yet she asks herself,

‘How many times,

Will I have to say,

I’ll put on a fight,

Just one more time’

I’m Sorry

I’m sorry you looked at me and saw a loser

I’m sorry I was never good enough

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I’m sorry that I let you down

I’m sorry that I never quit

I’m sorry I fought on when you didn’t want me to

I’m sorry I’m human

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I’m sorry that the bad confidence made me lose my confidence

I’m sorry that the critique made me doubt myself

I’m not sorry about being strong

I’m sorry that I did fall

I’m not sorry about constantly trying to pick myself up

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I’m sorry over the times I gave up

I’m not sorry about trying

I am a fighter

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I may no be good enough in your eyes

But I will be good in someone’s elses

Most importantly to myself

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I may not get what I want now

But I will eventually

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I may not be the best today

But I will tomorrow

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I may not be your first choice

But I probably will to someone that treats me like I’m human

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I’m sorry I am nothing to you

Most importantly I’m sorry I ever doubted myself

I teach myself to be stronger each day

I teach myself to be treat others better than I was treated each day

I teach myself to believe in myself each day

I teach myself to hold on and fight for one more day

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I’m sorry I may not show it

But I am worth it

I’m sorry you thought otherwise

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I’m sorry that I act like a quitter to you

But I am not sorry that I know I deserve to be treated with dignity

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I’m sorry that I didn’t fight for you

I’m not sorry that I made a choice to fight for me

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I’m sorry that I was never strong enough for you

I’m not sorry that I was afraid to admit my weakness

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I’m sorry that I’m not perfect

I’m not sorry about being a human who messes up a lot

Weak but Strong

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Sometimes it feels like its time to give up,

But you have to fight on

 

Sometimes it feels like you’ve given your all,

But you have nothing to show for it

 

Sometimes you fall on a rough road,

But have have to pick yourself up

 

You have to be the boxer that was losing,

But you came back and won with a knockout

 

You may have started the race last,

But you finished first

 

Sometimes you have to be the cactus,

That grows in the desert

 

Sometimes you have to be the rainbow,

That comes after the rain

 

Sometimes you may look weak like a bamboo,

But deep inside you know your are strong

 

Sometimes you have to shed a tear,

That say lets try this one more time

 

Sometimes you have to smile,

To show that you haven’t given up

 

Sometimes you have to be your hero,

Because no one else will

 

So you have to go to that interview,

Do that audition again,

Talk to that director,

Visit that office,

Keep practicing for that race

 

Because sometimes we jump off cliffs to land in calm waters,

We jump off planes to land in the best beaches,

We get lost in forests only to discover how beautiful they are,

We are forced to travel the road less taken only to find what we need,

We get lost in the sea only to find breathe taking islands,

And we get lost in deserts only to find that the mirage was real,

We lose a fight so that we can learn how to win it

 

When you are at the verge of giving up,

When your face looks weak and your body feels like,

At least let your heart be strong