I Need Words

I’ve been searching,

Yet its always a dead end

 

I need words,

To describe that first moment I saw you

 

I know its not love at first sight,

It was more of peace at first sight

 

Everything felt right at that first glance,

Every worry disappeared

 

For the first time in months,

A genuine smile appeared

 

It was like a guardian angel had been sent to me,

A protector

 

I need words to describe,

That first moment I gazed into your eyes

Scared

I am not scared of you

 

I am just scared of the past,

One that might repeat itself

 

I don’t want to be with someone,

Who’s always hiding their phone

 

I  don’t want to be with someone,

Who talks to you on occasions

 

I don’t want to be with someone,

Who you have to force to be there

 

I don’t want to be with someone,

Who makes you have a grip so hard,

Then they let go but still hold on to torture you

 

I don’t want to be with someone,

Who makes you cry and frown most of the times

 

I am not scared of you,

I just fear a past that might repeat itself,

And I don’t want it to be in you