When the Enemy Became A Best Friend
From the time I was 11 after changing schools, I experienced bullying or discrimination and became a weirdo with no feelings since I never reacted when offended. Well one day I confided in some people about a crush and they went and told everyone and of course the reaction was ‘she’s too ugly, I can never date a person like her’ followed by ‘shock’ from classmates on how I could even have a crush. It was embarrassing but after two years we became best friends… funny how thing change.
Television and The Radio
Most of the things I can remember about my childhood are negative comments I got in school. There was a clique who found a description for everything I do, ‘she eats like a cat, she walks bad’ etc and of course over the years I tried to change so that I could impress. I remember one day trying out a new running style because they had said something bad about how I run and the next day my Physical Education teacher who happened to be my class teacher came to joke about it… with the rest of the class.
So what kept me going was TV Talk shows like Oprah and Tyra and movies and music. At the time I would realize that I’m not alone and after I finished the school the pain I had from my experiences started fading and it stopped becoming much of a big deal.
I loved high school because it was different and no one cared about silly things. So I could at least focus on school and not negative comments that people had. And for the few people who had them I never really cared because just to be sincere I felt like I shouldn’t focus on those(although some got to me) since there was so much more to life.
Doing the personality test was the best thing that ever happened to me. I had had so many questions about myself in the past and the test answered them for me. After that I stopped caring a lot about what people say.
University life has basically taught me that sometimes you ought to pretend, sometimes being yourself pays, sometimes you should not disclose too much information, sometimes people will try to fit in… financially, but you’ll be way happier if you end up just being true to yourself.